I inhabited a woman who brought me to the dark side for 6 weeks. It was painful and uncomfortable. I forced myself to feel her pain, desperation, and anger. It's taking me some time to shed her skin. Was it fun? No. Was it rewarding? Yes. Did I help people further understand how complex the human condition is? I hope so. Did I help people understand that motherhood can be very complex and dark? Did I help people see that you can really screw up as a mother? This is what I wanted to achieve.
If you spend your life living with dark characters who regularly bring you to your pain and wounds then heroin may be a choice of relief. I get that. I will miss you Philip Seymour Hoffman, terribly.
